Happy Thanksgiving

I WANTED TO WISH ALL MY FAMILY, FRIENDS AND READERS HAPPY THANKSGIVING. I AM THANKFUL FOR SO MANY THINGS IN MY LIFE. I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW MUCH I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH SO MUCH THAT IT SOMETIMES OVERWHELMS ME. I DO PROMISE THAT I WILL START BLOGGING AND MAKING YOU LAUGH, OR MAYBE EVEN CRY ONCE AGAIN. MY ALTER EGO WILL BLOG AND SOMETIMES EVEN ME. *BIG SMILE

Under Construction

Addicted

I have thought about closing my blog all together. I hardly write in it now and most of the time when I do find something I want to talk about it's brief, or I just copy and paste. The facts are when I get home I get lazy, I get tired, I eat, shower, watch King of the Hill or Simpson's saved on my DVR and then I go to nite nite land. I want more then just that in my life tho, I want to be able to find my VOICE again. Plus I can't just walk away from my online life, my blog, my other virtual worlds. I am addicted, no matter how much I say I am going to "grow up" and not play online games, or not look for things to do online, etc, etc, etc. I love the online world and I have been happy most of the time. Usually it's when I recreate and start over again with a new avatar or online life. But I do want to do it this time and be HAPPY with it. Those who are not use to playing online probably can't understand what I am talking about. Which is fine, online gaming and online life's is NOT for everyone. Many thing you have to be unhappy, unsuccessful, or be missing something from your real life to engage in an online life style. So, not true, its a hobby (for me anyway). It is a hobby that I find fun and appealing, something I LIKE TO DO.

Once again I have recreated my online persona, yes again, but this time I took more of a risk then I normally would. This time I haven't tagged myself with my own name and expected her just to be ME in game. My new persona is more of a Diva, with the look to go with it. I find myself buying her clothes I would of stayed away from because they weren't every day attire. I found myself just looking DIFFERENT in many ways. I have been in the virtual world for a long time. I have been a Doctor, Lawyer, Apartment Manager, A DJ, Designer, Jeweler. I have owned a Restaurant, Maternity Clinic, Children's Clinic, Day Care, Adoption Agency, A Modeling Agency one for children, one for adults, I have owned a Magazine Company, A Flower & Gift shop with delivery service, I have owned a Hip Hop Radio Station (the first in two virtual worlds I played), I have owned two clubs, one which was a Hip Hop Club, I have owned many different clothing stores not all successful but some were, I have owned a Movie Theatre,I have owned a community with several business owned by several other ppl, I have owned several Apartment Complexes, A Garden of learning and love, A Bed and Breakfast, A work out skill house, A Money house, I have been many things, done many things, and owned many business and I have always became rettless, tired and bored with what I have done. My accomplishments in game had I stuck with just one would of been known and successful thought many of the games I have played even until now. I have been many avatars, with many faces, with many personalises, with many life's. I have never tried to fool people in order to hurt them, get over on them, or make their life upsetting. Fact most of my avatars were always in the background of what I did. I never wanted to be known, I would not engage in conversation or make myself speak to anyone. Unlike ME my avatars are not the social butterfly or the talkactivve person I am in real life. I have kept that side of me in game quiet. But my new avatar, her persona will speak for herself and I do want something successful. I have even thought of writing a book about my online adventures and life styles. I wanted to do this because even though it may not be interesting to anyone but those who know and love me, it is something I want to do and want to bring forth to the table. With that being said, I am going to work on the new blog and when I am ready I am going to put it out there for all to see. I hope to be finish by December 1st which is next week. I also will be doing a 2008 review where I will look over my blog and some things I will bring back as s last look for many, and a new look for some. So all I ask is be patient and stay tuned.

Barbie

Today we talked about Barbies, I lost a lot of them during my moves and really have stopped even trying to collect them. I went to yahoo to see if I could see what a Barbie looked like during the time I was little enough to own one. I also needed it for some research of the book I am writing. As I searched for a Barbie that was made the year I remember getting one I came across the first ever commercial l. Thought I was share!! LOL

what next... a Book?

I seriously have not had the desire to do anything on the computer. Last night I woke up and got on WOW with Dee and put up some cloth for sale. I always find a buyer for my items and that gives me extra gold to buy pets. lol. I talk about Dena aka Scarlett about her pets but truth i s in WOW I would love to have what few pets there are in my bank and just take them out when I do so feel the need too. But facts are I am still NOT AS bad at Scarlett with her pet collection. I was going to play Fable and didn't even open the box and insert the disc to begin the download. Yesterday, as always, I got the depress feeling of having to go back to work and it lasted and lasted and lasted. But I am dressed and ready to go and perform my duties as I always do.

Last night, or should I say early this morning when I got up I decided I want to write a book. Now this won't be like my stories that I start and stop on. This will be more of a non fiction fact base story about me and one character who I will mark and live as in SL. The book won't just be about my second life, it will be about my online addiction and how I got started. I thought about calling it "Confession of a Fat Girl addiction to the Internet". Yeah, I can always make fun of myself before someone else does. But seriously, right now the urge to do that is strong and I am going to seriously think it over before I attempt to do it. I was to be real in the book, but I know a lot of my real life I want to keep out of the book. Who knows, if I write it Oprah may have me on her show and I would be loved by ALL!! Something like how it is now.. OH BEHAVE!!

To Sleep or NOT to Sleep...

Ok I went to sleep REALLY early and woke up around 18 Min's ago. Most people would of got up to do what they needed to do (bathroom check everyone) then crawled back in the bed and went back to sleep. Not ME!, my problem is once I get up and my feet hit the cold floor of the bathroom it awakens my whole body. Anyway, my tv was loud when I walked back in and my eyes glanced up to see Tom Cruise in a semi confrontation with Val Kilmer. For some reason the fact that Val Kilmer and I shared a back ground of having Native American blood in us made me go to IMDB to see what his tribe was. (Mine btw is Seminole from my fathers side and Chippewa & Apache from my mothers). Well while doing so I came across a movie trailer starring Will Smith called 7 pounds. I watched it and already it has me wanting to see more. (this is more Victors job lol), I added the trailer so you can see what I am talking about. I am a big Will Smith fan, I think he is one of the greatest actors of our time. It amazes me how someone who was a rapper has become a movie actor who has changed the way I view a rapper turn actor thoughts. I like Ice Cube, but hmmm when ever he plays a part it's always ICE CUBE. LL Cool J is another actor who has shown he can do a change. I do like his acting ability too (or maybe I just like how he looks lol). It's too early to really see how "Common" is going to take on his new role of an actor. With him it's his look right now for me. Lol. Anyway I am going to see if I can lay down and get some sleep before I have to get up. It's the url http://www.imdb.com/video/imdb/vi2170028057/


Oh yeah, lol as fro Val he has Cherokee blood line from his paternal great grandmother, some more interesting facts. He was the 5Th actor to play "Batman", He attend Chatsworth High School (hmm yep yep, so did Kevin spacey and Mare Willingham btw). Learn he was getting a divorce from Joanne Whaley Kilmer while watching CNN in a hotel room. Anything else you may want to know about him go to IMDB.com.

Laying down now, bye bye

Victory Speech!

Obama Party

Higher & HIgher

Today before I went home from work I felt a little sad and discouraged. I looked on CNN's website to see that McCain had a 8 point lead over Obama's 3 point. I knew it was earlier in the elections but I just felt a sense of display and disappointment. I expected a landslide, I wanted a landslide, I wanted a BIGGER margin for votes in favor of my Candidate. When Dee and I got home I didn't want to watch the election I wanted to watch a movie and just wake up tomorrow and see the outcome. But Dee insisted we watch, he insisted we view the results as they came in. He had been excited about this election, first time he registered to vote, first time he was really interested in what could change the country. I guess I had a lot to do with this because my excitement of Obama winning was always clearly verbal. I will admit, at first I wanted Obama to win because he was black. It is hard to admit that but I am doing so now. However, when I heard his speech a few weeks back I cried. I cried because for the first time I Believed someone could make a change. someone could make a difference and someone was talking to this country with real hope. I liked Bill Clinton, and he will forever be a favorite of mine as president. But to me, to ME as a person, Obama truly gives me a sense of hope and change. As Dee and I watched the elections, I screamed he yelled at every state we took, and we stuck our tongues out at every state we lost (yes me and the hubby can be so juvenile at times).

We both decided to log into Second Life to see if there was any kind of celebrations or parties for Obama. We logged in and found a place where there were other Obama supporters who were just as excited as we were. It was wonderful, we all shared a comment need and want. We talked, laughed, cheered, cried and I know it was an on line world but we all had the seem real life thoughts and dreams. The place where we were was packed , there were people of different races and backgrounds. We all cheered each win Obama received and all booed for the few McCain took. The owner of the club kept posting on a huge screen CNN results as they came in. Every once in a while someone would type in the new numbers on screen. I snapped photos of the event as I made comments here and there about what was going on. Suddenly like a flash of light, one minute before 8:00pm pacific standard time (9pm if you haven't changed your damn clocks yet) Obama was announced the president elected of the United States of American. By 9pm my dream for a landslide was now my reality. Obama 338 / McCain 141 it was posted up for all to see. We cheered, We screamed, We cried, we were connected as a COUNTRY. I didn't see a black president I saw a CHANGE!!!! Someone gave my avatar a glass of champagne someone made a quick toast. We then laughed and talked and cheered more. Jeff came up stairs and he was excited too, he showed his knowledge, I showed mine lol. My youngest son didn't seem to have much interest., but (fighting word/ personal joke people lol) to his defense he had just woke up so he wasn't really aware. I took photos which I will share of course, I am happy, HAPPY that there may finally be some hope to the way our Country has been. HOPE!! that we will finally try to united as a one and make some changes. I have HOPE that this is just the beginning of a turn around for us all.

Right before Obama did his accepted speech they played an old song by Jackie Wilson called Higher and Higher. It gave me a sense of how I felt, that this election would bring us higher and higher. I added it to my blog. No matter who you voted for, no matter who you are, it time for a CHANGE!! Let's all stand behind the man and work together to make this country the country it use to be. With that being said I am going to make a change.. ARE YOU???

PS. My only hopes now is that the NO on prop 8 will go through, I haven't forgotten other issues people we will wait this out in the morning.

PSS. Shepard Smith on Fox news is funny as hell, he has a very relaxed persona. My favorite line of his the whole evening was when a youngest was holding up a sign outside the white house and it said "Don't wait to evict Bush, do it now" he read it and said "In time young one, in time" lol its not what he says it how he says it. He was clearly an Obama supporter and he made no bones about it in a dl kind of way. LOL anyway watch him.

"Where have you been BITCH?!!"

Today I logged into sl and wanted to do more to Scarlett's house and also to see the Halloween display she has before she takes it down. I have not had the desire to much to go into game. There are many reasons, but one I think is because when I log in I feel out of place and out of touch with my avatar. Now before you start thinking I am crazier then what I am. Understand that with your avatar you don't just log in the game and play. You give a Personality, a sense of Style, a Do's or Don't's Rule book, you give them a Home, Friends, Family, you give them morals, you shape and mode them to do what you want. YOU give them LIFE. They either become who YOU are in your real life, or they become who YOU want to be in a virtual world, or they take on a persona of their own while your playing them. As much as I love my avatar her life I no longer care for. She reminds me of someone who doesn't really know what she wants. She is single, with a kid she doesn't really like or want, she has a business as a designer with a clothing line that she could give two shits about. She is not like me at all, so much so that I am starting to dislike her a bit. A love hate feeling if you will. I know your probably thinking how can I say I dislike something in which I am the creator. Because as I said, they can take on their own persona's depending on what happens in their virtual world with those around them. I think the reason I dislike her because I no longer see ME in her or even a ME I would like. I know to most it may be easier to just "role play" her differently. But the facts are she has her own persona now. Her own being, she is who she is. I of course don't want to have a whole lot of damn avatars running around the grid either. But if I don't enjoy playing her how can I enjoy playing second life at all. Scarlett said something once that made so much sense. "When you make alts you are taking a piece of you and giving it to another character that you lose yourself" Not an exact quote but it was along those lines. I want to log on and be happy to be in sl. Not hate what someone who purchase my clothing will hit me up, or roll my eyes when my adopted child ims me to say hi or ask for lindens before saying hi. I need something different! I need to renew, refresh, recreated, restart my second life.

The reason for the "Where have you been BITCH!?" line is because I received a email from a friend who was wondering why I haven't blogged and why when I do it's so fast you shouldn't blink. I keep saying I will start blogging again and I will. It's not that I don't have anything to talk about. HELL you all know me I have plenty to talk about and I have a damn opinion on everything like it or NOT!!! So with that being said. I do want to start blogging again, and I do want to recreate my Avie. So I won't promise shit but I will promise to TRY!!!

ELECTION TOMORROW VOTE DAMN IT!!!