"Where have you been BITCH?!!"

Today I logged into sl and wanted to do more to Scarlett's house and also to see the Halloween display she has before she takes it down. I have not had the desire to much to go into game. There are many reasons, but one I think is because when I log in I feel out of place and out of touch with my avatar. Now before you start thinking I am crazier then what I am. Understand that with your avatar you don't just log in the game and play. You give a Personality, a sense of Style, a Do's or Don't's Rule book, you give them a Home, Friends, Family, you give them morals, you shape and mode them to do what you want. YOU give them LIFE. They either become who YOU are in your real life, or they become who YOU want to be in a virtual world, or they take on a persona of their own while your playing them. As much as I love my avatar her life I no longer care for. She reminds me of someone who doesn't really know what she wants. She is single, with a kid she doesn't really like or want, she has a business as a designer with a clothing line that she could give two shits about. She is not like me at all, so much so that I am starting to dislike her a bit. A love hate feeling if you will. I know your probably thinking how can I say I dislike something in which I am the creator. Because as I said, they can take on their own persona's depending on what happens in their virtual world with those around them. I think the reason I dislike her because I no longer see ME in her or even a ME I would like. I know to most it may be easier to just "role play" her differently. But the facts are she has her own persona now. Her own being, she is who she is. I of course don't want to have a whole lot of damn avatars running around the grid either. But if I don't enjoy playing her how can I enjoy playing second life at all. Scarlett said something once that made so much sense. "When you make alts you are taking a piece of you and giving it to another character that you lose yourself" Not an exact quote but it was along those lines. I want to log on and be happy to be in sl. Not hate what someone who purchase my clothing will hit me up, or roll my eyes when my adopted child ims me to say hi or ask for lindens before saying hi. I need something different! I need to renew, refresh, recreated, restart my second life.

The reason for the "Where have you been BITCH!?" line is because I received a email from a friend who was wondering why I haven't blogged and why when I do it's so fast you shouldn't blink. I keep saying I will start blogging again and I will. It's not that I don't have anything to talk about. HELL you all know me I have plenty to talk about and I have a damn opinion on everything like it or NOT!!! So with that being said. I do want to start blogging again, and I do want to recreate my Avie. So I won't promise shit but I will promise to TRY!!!

ELECTION TOMORROW VOTE DAMN IT!!!