Addicted

I have thought about closing my blog all together. I hardly write in it now and most of the time when I do find something I want to talk about it's brief, or I just copy and paste. The facts are when I get home I get lazy, I get tired, I eat, shower, watch King of the Hill or Simpson's saved on my DVR and then I go to nite nite land. I want more then just that in my life tho, I want to be able to find my VOICE again. Plus I can't just walk away from my online life, my blog, my other virtual worlds. I am addicted, no matter how much I say I am going to "grow up" and not play online games, or not look for things to do online, etc, etc, etc. I love the online world and I have been happy most of the time. Usually it's when I recreate and start over again with a new avatar or online life. But I do want to do it this time and be HAPPY with it. Those who are not use to playing online probably can't understand what I am talking about. Which is fine, online gaming and online life's is NOT for everyone. Many thing you have to be unhappy, unsuccessful, or be missing something from your real life to engage in an online life style. So, not true, its a hobby (for me anyway). It is a hobby that I find fun and appealing, something I LIKE TO DO.

Once again I have recreated my online persona, yes again, but this time I took more of a risk then I normally would. This time I haven't tagged myself with my own name and expected her just to be ME in game. My new persona is more of a Diva, with the look to go with it. I find myself buying her clothes I would of stayed away from because they weren't every day attire. I found myself just looking DIFFERENT in many ways. I have been in the virtual world for a long time. I have been a Doctor, Lawyer, Apartment Manager, A DJ, Designer, Jeweler. I have owned a Restaurant, Maternity Clinic, Children's Clinic, Day Care, Adoption Agency, A Modeling Agency one for children, one for adults, I have owned a Magazine Company, A Flower & Gift shop with delivery service, I have owned a Hip Hop Radio Station (the first in two virtual worlds I played), I have owned two clubs, one which was a Hip Hop Club, I have owned many different clothing stores not all successful but some were, I have owned a Movie Theatre,I have owned a community with several business owned by several other ppl, I have owned several Apartment Complexes, A Garden of learning and love, A Bed and Breakfast, A work out skill house, A Money house, I have been many things, done many things, and owned many business and I have always became rettless, tired and bored with what I have done. My accomplishments in game had I stuck with just one would of been known and successful thought many of the games I have played even until now. I have been many avatars, with many faces, with many personalises, with many life's. I have never tried to fool people in order to hurt them, get over on them, or make their life upsetting. Fact most of my avatars were always in the background of what I did. I never wanted to be known, I would not engage in conversation or make myself speak to anyone. Unlike ME my avatars are not the social butterfly or the talkactivve person I am in real life. I have kept that side of me in game quiet. But my new avatar, her persona will speak for herself and I do want something successful. I have even thought of writing a book about my online adventures and life styles. I wanted to do this because even though it may not be interesting to anyone but those who know and love me, it is something I want to do and want to bring forth to the table. With that being said, I am going to work on the new blog and when I am ready I am going to put it out there for all to see. I hope to be finish by December 1st which is next week. I also will be doing a 2008 review where I will look over my blog and some things I will bring back as s last look for many, and a new look for some. So all I ask is be patient and stay tuned.