Happy Birthday..

I have been depressed for the past few days, each day that approached today was making me more and more depressed and sad. I don't know why I felt this way, each birthday before this one I have always been upbeat and happy that I was another year older. But this birthday was different, until this morning. I woke up around 5am and laid in bed, I listen to Dee snore until I poked him in his side and he turned over. I had been snappy at his all day the day before and after a few hours of that I told him why. I went back to sleep and woke up again at 6am, but this time I felt different. I closed my eyes and was happy I had made another year in my life. I logged into game and Dena had send me a message wishing me a Happy Birthday, that put a smile on my face. Dee then woke up and grabbed me and kissed me and said Happy Birthday Baby. I realize that the older I get I should be grateful, grateful that I am here yet another day. So today, I'm going to get up and get out and enjoy my day. No money in hand so I am going to go to a park or something but I refuse to stay at home. REFUSE!!!