Happy Thanksgiving

I WANTED TO WISH ALL MY FAMILY, FRIENDS AND READERS HAPPY THANKSGIVING. I AM THANKFUL FOR SO MANY THINGS IN MY LIFE. I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW MUCH I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH SO MUCH THAT IT SOMETIMES OVERWHELMS ME. I DO PROMISE THAT I WILL START BLOGGING AND MAKING YOU LAUGH, OR MAYBE EVEN CRY ONCE AGAIN. MY ALTER EGO WILL BLOG AND SOMETIMES EVEN ME. *BIG SMILE

Under Construction

Addicted

I have thought about closing my blog all together. I hardly write in it now and most of the time when I do find something I want to talk about it's brief, or I just copy and paste. The facts are when I get home I get lazy, I get tired, I eat, shower, watch King of the Hill or Simpson's saved on my DVR and then I go to nite nite land. I want more then just that in my life tho, I want to be able to find my VOICE again. Plus I can't just walk away from my online life, my blog, my other virtual worlds. I am addicted, no matter how much I say I am going to "grow up" and not play online games, or not look for things to do online, etc, etc, etc. I love the online world and I have been happy most of the time. Usually it's when I recreate and start over again with a new avatar or online life. But I do want to do it this time and be HAPPY with it. Those who are not use to playing online probably can't understand what I am talking about. Which is fine, online gaming and online life's is NOT for everyone. Many thing you have to be unhappy, unsuccessful, or be missing something from your real life to engage in an online life style. So, not true, its a hobby (for me anyway). It is a hobby that I find fun and appealing, something I LIKE TO DO.

Once again I have recreated my online persona, yes again, but this time I took more of a risk then I normally would. This time I haven't tagged myself with my own name and expected her just to be ME in game. My new persona is more of a Diva, with the look to go with it. I find myself buying her clothes I would of stayed away from because they weren't every day attire. I found myself just looking DIFFERENT in many ways. I have been in the virtual world for a long time. I have been a Doctor, Lawyer, Apartment Manager, A DJ, Designer, Jeweler. I have owned a Restaurant, Maternity Clinic, Children's Clinic, Day Care, Adoption Agency, A Modeling Agency one for children, one for adults, I have owned a Magazine Company, A Flower & Gift shop with delivery service, I have owned a Hip Hop Radio Station (the first in two virtual worlds I played), I have owned two clubs, one which was a Hip Hop Club, I have owned many different clothing stores not all successful but some were, I have owned a Movie Theatre,I have owned a community with several business owned by several other ppl, I have owned several Apartment Complexes, A Garden of learning and love, A Bed and Breakfast, A work out skill house, A Money house, I have been many things, done many things, and owned many business and I have always became rettless, tired and bored with what I have done. My accomplishments in game had I stuck with just one would of been known and successful thought many of the games I have played even until now. I have been many avatars, with many faces, with many personalises, with many life's. I have never tried to fool people in order to hurt them, get over on them, or make their life upsetting. Fact most of my avatars were always in the background of what I did. I never wanted to be known, I would not engage in conversation or make myself speak to anyone. Unlike ME my avatars are not the social butterfly or the talkactivve person I am in real life. I have kept that side of me in game quiet. But my new avatar, her persona will speak for herself and I do want something successful. I have even thought of writing a book about my online adventures and life styles. I wanted to do this because even though it may not be interesting to anyone but those who know and love me, it is something I want to do and want to bring forth to the table. With that being said, I am going to work on the new blog and when I am ready I am going to put it out there for all to see. I hope to be finish by December 1st which is next week. I also will be doing a 2008 review where I will look over my blog and some things I will bring back as s last look for many, and a new look for some. So all I ask is be patient and stay tuned.

Barbie

Today we talked about Barbies, I lost a lot of them during my moves and really have stopped even trying to collect them. I went to yahoo to see if I could see what a Barbie looked like during the time I was little enough to own one. I also needed it for some research of the book I am writing. As I searched for a Barbie that was made the year I remember getting one I came across the first ever commercial l. Thought I was share!! LOL

what next... a Book?

I seriously have not had the desire to do anything on the computer. Last night I woke up and got on WOW with Dee and put up some cloth for sale. I always find a buyer for my items and that gives me extra gold to buy pets. lol. I talk about Dena aka Scarlett about her pets but truth i s in WOW I would love to have what few pets there are in my bank and just take them out when I do so feel the need too. But facts are I am still NOT AS bad at Scarlett with her pet collection. I was going to play Fable and didn't even open the box and insert the disc to begin the download. Yesterday, as always, I got the depress feeling of having to go back to work and it lasted and lasted and lasted. But I am dressed and ready to go and perform my duties as I always do.

Last night, or should I say early this morning when I got up I decided I want to write a book. Now this won't be like my stories that I start and stop on. This will be more of a non fiction fact base story about me and one character who I will mark and live as in SL. The book won't just be about my second life, it will be about my online addiction and how I got started. I thought about calling it "Confession of a Fat Girl addiction to the Internet". Yeah, I can always make fun of myself before someone else does. But seriously, right now the urge to do that is strong and I am going to seriously think it over before I attempt to do it. I was to be real in the book, but I know a lot of my real life I want to keep out of the book. Who knows, if I write it Oprah may have me on her show and I would be loved by ALL!! Something like how it is now.. OH BEHAVE!!

To Sleep or NOT to Sleep...

Ok I went to sleep REALLY early and woke up around 18 Min's ago. Most people would of got up to do what they needed to do (bathroom check everyone) then crawled back in the bed and went back to sleep. Not ME!, my problem is once I get up and my feet hit the cold floor of the bathroom it awakens my whole body. Anyway, my tv was loud when I walked back in and my eyes glanced up to see Tom Cruise in a semi confrontation with Val Kilmer. For some reason the fact that Val Kilmer and I shared a back ground of having Native American blood in us made me go to IMDB to see what his tribe was. (Mine btw is Seminole from my fathers side and Chippewa & Apache from my mothers). Well while doing so I came across a movie trailer starring Will Smith called 7 pounds. I watched it and already it has me wanting to see more. (this is more Victors job lol), I added the trailer so you can see what I am talking about. I am a big Will Smith fan, I think he is one of the greatest actors of our time. It amazes me how someone who was a rapper has become a movie actor who has changed the way I view a rapper turn actor thoughts. I like Ice Cube, but hmmm when ever he plays a part it's always ICE CUBE. LL Cool J is another actor who has shown he can do a change. I do like his acting ability too (or maybe I just like how he looks lol). It's too early to really see how "Common" is going to take on his new role of an actor. With him it's his look right now for me. Lol. Anyway I am going to see if I can lay down and get some sleep before I have to get up. It's the url http://www.imdb.com/video/imdb/vi2170028057/


Oh yeah, lol as fro Val he has Cherokee blood line from his paternal great grandmother, some more interesting facts. He was the 5Th actor to play "Batman", He attend Chatsworth High School (hmm yep yep, so did Kevin spacey and Mare Willingham btw). Learn he was getting a divorce from Joanne Whaley Kilmer while watching CNN in a hotel room. Anything else you may want to know about him go to IMDB.com.

Laying down now, bye bye

Victory Speech!

Obama Party

Higher & HIgher

Today before I went home from work I felt a little sad and discouraged. I looked on CNN's website to see that McCain had a 8 point lead over Obama's 3 point. I knew it was earlier in the elections but I just felt a sense of display and disappointment. I expected a landslide, I wanted a landslide, I wanted a BIGGER margin for votes in favor of my Candidate. When Dee and I got home I didn't want to watch the election I wanted to watch a movie and just wake up tomorrow and see the outcome. But Dee insisted we watch, he insisted we view the results as they came in. He had been excited about this election, first time he registered to vote, first time he was really interested in what could change the country. I guess I had a lot to do with this because my excitement of Obama winning was always clearly verbal. I will admit, at first I wanted Obama to win because he was black. It is hard to admit that but I am doing so now. However, when I heard his speech a few weeks back I cried. I cried because for the first time I Believed someone could make a change. someone could make a difference and someone was talking to this country with real hope. I liked Bill Clinton, and he will forever be a favorite of mine as president. But to me, to ME as a person, Obama truly gives me a sense of hope and change. As Dee and I watched the elections, I screamed he yelled at every state we took, and we stuck our tongues out at every state we lost (yes me and the hubby can be so juvenile at times).

We both decided to log into Second Life to see if there was any kind of celebrations or parties for Obama. We logged in and found a place where there were other Obama supporters who were just as excited as we were. It was wonderful, we all shared a comment need and want. We talked, laughed, cheered, cried and I know it was an on line world but we all had the seem real life thoughts and dreams. The place where we were was packed , there were people of different races and backgrounds. We all cheered each win Obama received and all booed for the few McCain took. The owner of the club kept posting on a huge screen CNN results as they came in. Every once in a while someone would type in the new numbers on screen. I snapped photos of the event as I made comments here and there about what was going on. Suddenly like a flash of light, one minute before 8:00pm pacific standard time (9pm if you haven't changed your damn clocks yet) Obama was announced the president elected of the United States of American. By 9pm my dream for a landslide was now my reality. Obama 338 / McCain 141 it was posted up for all to see. We cheered, We screamed, We cried, we were connected as a COUNTRY. I didn't see a black president I saw a CHANGE!!!! Someone gave my avatar a glass of champagne someone made a quick toast. We then laughed and talked and cheered more. Jeff came up stairs and he was excited too, he showed his knowledge, I showed mine lol. My youngest son didn't seem to have much interest., but (fighting word/ personal joke people lol) to his defense he had just woke up so he wasn't really aware. I took photos which I will share of course, I am happy, HAPPY that there may finally be some hope to the way our Country has been. HOPE!! that we will finally try to united as a one and make some changes. I have HOPE that this is just the beginning of a turn around for us all.

Right before Obama did his accepted speech they played an old song by Jackie Wilson called Higher and Higher. It gave me a sense of how I felt, that this election would bring us higher and higher. I added it to my blog. No matter who you voted for, no matter who you are, it time for a CHANGE!! Let's all stand behind the man and work together to make this country the country it use to be. With that being said I am going to make a change.. ARE YOU???

PS. My only hopes now is that the NO on prop 8 will go through, I haven't forgotten other issues people we will wait this out in the morning.

PSS. Shepard Smith on Fox news is funny as hell, he has a very relaxed persona. My favorite line of his the whole evening was when a youngest was holding up a sign outside the white house and it said "Don't wait to evict Bush, do it now" he read it and said "In time young one, in time" lol its not what he says it how he says it. He was clearly an Obama supporter and he made no bones about it in a dl kind of way. LOL anyway watch him.

"Where have you been BITCH?!!"

Today I logged into sl and wanted to do more to Scarlett's house and also to see the Halloween display she has before she takes it down. I have not had the desire to much to go into game. There are many reasons, but one I think is because when I log in I feel out of place and out of touch with my avatar. Now before you start thinking I am crazier then what I am. Understand that with your avatar you don't just log in the game and play. You give a Personality, a sense of Style, a Do's or Don't's Rule book, you give them a Home, Friends, Family, you give them morals, you shape and mode them to do what you want. YOU give them LIFE. They either become who YOU are in your real life, or they become who YOU want to be in a virtual world, or they take on a persona of their own while your playing them. As much as I love my avatar her life I no longer care for. She reminds me of someone who doesn't really know what she wants. She is single, with a kid she doesn't really like or want, she has a business as a designer with a clothing line that she could give two shits about. She is not like me at all, so much so that I am starting to dislike her a bit. A love hate feeling if you will. I know your probably thinking how can I say I dislike something in which I am the creator. Because as I said, they can take on their own persona's depending on what happens in their virtual world with those around them. I think the reason I dislike her because I no longer see ME in her or even a ME I would like. I know to most it may be easier to just "role play" her differently. But the facts are she has her own persona now. Her own being, she is who she is. I of course don't want to have a whole lot of damn avatars running around the grid either. But if I don't enjoy playing her how can I enjoy playing second life at all. Scarlett said something once that made so much sense. "When you make alts you are taking a piece of you and giving it to another character that you lose yourself" Not an exact quote but it was along those lines. I want to log on and be happy to be in sl. Not hate what someone who purchase my clothing will hit me up, or roll my eyes when my adopted child ims me to say hi or ask for lindens before saying hi. I need something different! I need to renew, refresh, recreated, restart my second life.

The reason for the "Where have you been BITCH!?" line is because I received a email from a friend who was wondering why I haven't blogged and why when I do it's so fast you shouldn't blink. I keep saying I will start blogging again and I will. It's not that I don't have anything to talk about. HELL you all know me I have plenty to talk about and I have a damn opinion on everything like it or NOT!!! So with that being said. I do want to start blogging again, and I do want to recreate my Avie. So I won't promise shit but I will promise to TRY!!!

ELECTION TOMORROW VOTE DAMN IT!!!

Happy Birthday Jeff

OMG ENOUGH ALREADY!!

Ok, I decided not to delete this blog. But I did decide to retire my avatar and make a new one. YES!! A new avatar with all the bells and whistles. I have been playing my avatar for well over 5 years. I do love her a lot, but I see her in a certain light and because of it I can't move on to the next step I want to. I know eyes are rolling and whispers are being hmm whispered. But I want to enjoy my virtual little life. I had made my alter ego but never really played her the way I wanted too. Now as I sit here I know I want to go back to how my virtual life was. So I decided today, to make another avatar.

The end of a Blog?

I know this may sound funny, but I am going to retire my blog. Now before I start getting hate email and other crazy BS. I am not going to stop blogging (however, if you listen to some of my family members and friends I have already stop blogging). But the avatar I use to play I really have put her in semi retirement and because of that I would like to start a fresh blog. Yes you will still get my wonderful personality, my fantastic sense of humor, and my sarcasm hmm. So this is the end of a blog, but not really. So with my new blog there will be new items listed and posted. I know if I write for my new Avie as well as my old rl that it may get me the push I need to start blogging again. I hope to end this blog on Sunday and begin the other the same day. Mind you, you may not even notice. So see you then..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VICTOR

I promise I will caught up

I have been really sick the past 2 days, my blood pressure is up and I haven't been able to sleep a full night. I wanted to let everyone who I promised I would be on tonight to know. I swear to you I will be on point tomorrow. I have a lot to talk about too.

Obama and McCain...
You know your Ghetto when..
Second Life (of course)..
The Do's and Don't of virtual Adoption ...
Why men watch "The View".....
Vantage Point (The Movie)....
Invent's Virtual Video Shoot (yeah AGAIN)
and more.

Introducting the NEW ScarlettAngel

Nuttin But Stringz

I am sorry this shit is funny as hell to me.

This person wanted to be banned so bad in sl due to "addiction", that she became a suicide bomber. Kid avie, on top of that a Kid Avie NEKO no less. Notice the different clubs she went to to get banned, Also notice she didn't go to a damn Hip Hop Club ROFL!!! They would of gunned her little neko ass down. But how bad is it when you have to go bombing SL club hang outs in order to get your ass banned from the wonderful world of SL. (be quiet mama Jerrie rofl)

Second Life Gone WILD!!

I have heard of a lot of crazy people who play SL, some leave their real life families for game families. Some say they are a female, or a man and be the opposite of what they say they are. Some send real life cash to an online lover not realizing there are 40 other females doing the same damn thing (true story). But this story I must confess even make my eyebrow raise. I in game playing with the volume low on my tv and over head on CNN about kidnapping, dog, duct tape but it didn't catch my attention until I heard "Second Life" By the time I realized it was over so I went to google and typed in Second Life Kidnapping plot, and by goodness I found the story. As I said, I have heard stories before BUT!! even this story makes me wanna laugh, or delete my avatar. (not really deleted I don't deal with crazy ass folks like this that stalk beyond stalking.

READ ON>>>
A North Carolina postal worker not ready to end her virtual romance with a Delaware man was arrested in Maryland after breaking into his Claymont apartment in an attempt to kidnap him.Kimberly Jernigan, 33, of Durham, is being held as a fugitive in the Cecil County Detention Center. She faces charges of attempted kidnapping, aggravated menacing and burglary when extradition to Delaware.New Castle County police spokesman Cpl. Trinidad Navarro said officers were called to the 52-year-old victim’s apartment in the Whitney Presidential Towers in Claymont at about 5:28 p.m. Thursday for a report of an attempted kidnapping.When officers arrived, the victim told them that when he got home from work he found an intruder standing in the shadows of his apartment pointing an object at him. The man then saw a laser beam on his torso that was shining from the object the intruder was holding.The man fled his apartment and called police to report that he believed the intruder was his ex-girlfriend, whom he identified as Jernigan, and alleged that she had also tried to kidnap him two weeks ago at his job in Pennsylvania.Officers searched the apartment and found her dog, Gogi, bound with duct tape in the bathtub and a pair of handcuffs and duct tape outside the victim’s bedroom window, where Jernigan had cut a screen to get in, Navarro said.A radio broadcast was issued to surrounding police agencies with a description of Jernigan’s blue 2008 Kia Rio with North Carolina registration.An hour later, Maryland state troopers found the car and the suspect at the Chesapeake House Rest Stop on I-95. She was taken into custody after a brief struggle, Navarro said. At the time of her arrest, troopers recovered a BB gun and Taser in her car. An investigation revealed that the two met online on a Web-based game called “Second Life.” The victim, whose character was a lion, engaged in a virtual relationship with Jernigan, whose character was a virtual woman.After the two met in person a few months ago, the victim broke off the relationship. Jernigan, however, was not ready to end the relationship and tried to kidnap the man at gunpoint two weeks ago at his place of employment in Pennsylvania.On Monday, Jernigan came back to the state and posed as a local postal worker attempting to deliver a package to him. But since the man had recently moved, she didn’t have his address. After four days, she found his address and went to his apartment with her dog Gogi.Not wanted to leave the dog in the car while she laid in wait for the victim, she brought the dog with her, Navarro said.However, the dog started barking, so Jernigan bound his snout with duct tape and locked him in the bathroom. When she split, she left the dog behind. The canine was found in good health and uninjured, Navarro said. He was turned over to the SPCA, which is investigating a possible animal cruelty case.

lol, talk about jungle love this takes the damn cake!!!

"I know how you Feel!"

Ok maybe I am getting lazy, but I had a little time this morning and read this article. REALLY thought some of you would take interest in it. It's funny how you laugh at something when your reading it and think "I know how you feel".

*** ARTICLE THIS MORNING ON AOL WEBSITE ****
"Do you know the Mafia? I'll send them over to India to get you!"That's just one of the threats that Mumbai call-center operator Malvyn Aranjo says he received in the course of a day's work. Fortunately, he says, it was against the American bank's company policy to tell a customer where his call-center team was located.Frustrated venting from American customers against Aranjo's agents include threats of legal action -- "I'll sue you" -- physical violence and, of course, a visit from the Mob.

"It is mind blowing," he says. "But it was a fit of anger and anyone can say anything in a fit of anger. Especially in relation to banking customers. Obviously they have a right to be angry with the bank [over the canceling of a card, for example] but some people do not take it good and lash out at the agent." Aranjo says that customers from America's Southern states sometimes experience difficulties. "Communication, the American or the agent's accent, can be a problem." In this situation, after perhaps three or four misunderstanding, a customer would be referred to a supervisor or manager at the call center, Aranjo says. His most polite customers? "Older ladies."Aranjo, 27, is one of millions of Indian and Asian workers drawn to work in customer service or IT support, often by the lure of easy money or a desire to be part of the global economy – two factors that were extremely hard to come by in India ten years ago, when Aranjo started out. Now, he manages his own hub, and call center work is as much a part of daily Indian life as cricket or the movies.Aranjo, who was born in Kuwait to Indian parents and grew up in India's capital city, has worked at several contact centers that contracted with western clients: One was for a diabetic supplies company answering queries for patients who had changed their insurance provider; another was in sales for UK grocery and retail chain Marks and Spencer. He also serviced customer calls on Vodafone's 3G capabilities alongside his banking clients' queries.After seven to eight years answering calls from international customers and clients, and getting promoted “year after year,” Aranjo took the position he holds now, of operations manager at a Mumbai call center specializing in recruitment. On the side, he runs his own e-business venture – selling goods on eBay among others – alongside a plastics and textile supplies firm.His family's financial position meant he had to work straight after graduating high school after excelling in science. For a time, he tried being a disc-jockey. He says while that was fun, market research is the most fun he can have now, as a successful entrepreneur.He says call-center work was hard at first and that some workers adjusted to the conditions while others found them hard-going. “The pure graveyard shift, like doctors do, is not easy to cope with. The work culture is really different. To cater to an American company, you have to work at the dead of night.“Basically I had a nine-hour shift, sometimes 12-14 hour shift. My job profile was taking care of everything: the IT sector, business, security, telecom and sales.”He says that a fresher, as they're called here, will earn a salary of about $500 a month. He started on a lot less than that, or about $200 monthly, when the industry was in its infancy. “I was young, it was young,” he says. Industry wages have risen steadily in the last 10 years and he says he's doing pretty well as an operations manager.Skills-wise, he says that technical ability is a pre-requisite for employment in Mumbai, alongside good written and verbal communication. “Almost everyone does have a normally operating computers. (Computer skills) are asked for but it is quite simple. At least 99 per cent of the public in Mumbai do have computer experience. Almost everyone has a computer at home.”Coffee, he says, is the indispensable tool of the trade. “The best trick. It keeps you awake and is better than any other type of medication.”Some media reports have suggested other call-center workers often rely on other, not necessarily legal, pharmaceuticals to make it through the shift. “So many crazy things happen,” he says. “One night, we had cops sitting over there (outside the call center) and a bunch of people smoking weed. The cops were OK with it. It's crazy but, really, how can you let that happen?”But Aranjo fared well with only coffee as a backup. “After seven years of working at night and sleeping during the day, sometimes now I find it tough to stay awake during the day!”
A global businessDeepak Shikarpur, the editor of BPO (Business Process Outsourcing) Digest, says “aspirations and a desire to be part of the global economy” are often the main motivating factors for Indian workers to join the BPO sector.

Many he says, like Melvyn, move up the career chain and end up as managers of IT or BPO companies by “sheer hard work”.He adds: ”Young age people are not too much bothered about long term-benefits. Their main worry is getting a dream job and good salary. If the employer is a multinational company with chance of overseas visits then the satisfaction is higher.“Jobs are moving up the value chain. Demand for low level data or voice BPO will be lower. The point is to add skills in (a) domain (like) technology and move up the value chain. Become multilingual and learn Spanish or French. A multilingual global work-cultured professional will always be in demand.”He says that India, which accounts for 28 per cent of global BPO agents in a $300 billion global outsourcing market, is “the darling” of the BPO business and that the Philippines, Malaysia, Thailand and Korea will need many years to catch up. He says call centers and the IT industry as a whole are creating very positive impacts on city economies, as BPO businesses offer easy money to young students and workers, stimulating spending in the area. Ideally, Shikarpur adds with a smile, any BPO agent should spend their hard-earned money on higher education, and not on shopping, discos or nightlife.
Skills required Kashinath A [correct name, just the initial, he says] is a Bangalore recruiter for call centers who's seen his share of the business from the other side.He says call-center workers need to have basic communication skills and good English. Technical software skills are required alongside document processing ability. He also advocated a qualification or certificate recognized by the government of India.Kashinath, 25, said when he started the industry was young and wages were below market standards. Now, with more competition for workers, wages have risen. His primary job was recruiting for a 500-worker call center in Bangalore that contracted with a Fortune 500 company Kashinath was reluctant to name.“It's a challenging task, recruiting the right person for the right job. Not everyone can do it. You need attitude, that means basically taking the initiative, the bottom line, and making a long-term commitment to grow with the company.”Kashinath now has set up his own startup venture, an internationally focused HR recruitment firm called Integritti.com, a “complete, managed HR service.”He says: “I had three years' experience in HR, got some of my friends and senior partners together and we had 60 years experience in HR. We planned to start a new venture (with) a mixture of senior and junior people.“We are a startup company. Once we have established ourselves in the market, definitely we will be looking outside India.”

I promise I will write something tonight just didn't want you to say I didn't write anything, ha, Ha, HA!!

Reach out and TOUCH someone

I am already dressed and awaiting Jeff to pick me up So I thought ok why not blog something QUICK!! I have a lot to blog about but last night I could not keep my eyes open so I drifted off to sleep after talking to Scarlett. Last night I was going through a bag with papers, bills and coupons and I ran across "the Letters" I wrote my family members. My mouth dropped because I thought I had sent them OUT!! I had one to my brother, one to my cousin Dolores and my cousin Ronnie. I then realize that is why they had not contacted me, because they didn't know I was reaching OUT to them. I must admit, I am not a family person towards my extended family. It's not that I don't love them (ok ok some of them I don't give a SHIT about but the ones I wrote to and their families I do). I have a big family believe it or not, many here in California, in Texas, In the southern states of Mississippi and Alabama and in Florida on a reservation there under the Seminole tribes. My Native American side I don't know much about. I know I have MANY siblings, cousins, aunts and uncles of who all wanted to be a part of my life many years ago. At that time I honestly was too involved in my own life to give a damn and I cut ties. Now I want to get in contact with them and don't really know how. Then again, I may have the means but maybe I am not really trying hard enough. I know, I am a bad person and I should reach out and try to get to know them better. But when I think about doing it, I think .. WHY!! *shrugs* ok my son is here.. gotta go.

The Flat Tire!

"The Flat Tire" que music please......

Our off days went by quickly as a whore leaves her client after his time is up (ooo bad joke??!!!). Anyway, Saturday we saw the guy who sold the car to us and during a few exchanges of hellos and how are yous we mention the "rim key", the "flat tire" and the fact we can't get to work. I have been relying on the kindness of strangers (strangers being Jeff, Donnie, Courtney and Angie (Jeff's girlfriend) for rides back and forth to work. It's been a totally nightmare worrying about how we are going to get back and forth and this is all because of a flat fucking TIRE!

Jeff took the car last week to go to work, and per him the tire just blew on the surface streets of the valley. (why do I still find that explanation BULLSHIT), Anyway, as you all know (ok some of you don't) Jeff car was back in the shop yet again so he was using ours. Now mind you it was only a flat tire but that flat tire has become one of the biggest damn head aches we could possible have to deal with. The rims on the car seriously are worth more then the car itself, and being that the case the previous owner put locks on the rims. LOCKS ON THE RIMS!!! this I did not know until Jeff had the flat and now its a pain in the ass to try to get the lock so we can, change the tire (takes a deep breath). Now as I was saying the previous owner of the car said he would go to his friends and get his lock that fits on the rims and come back and unlock the rims so that we could FINALLY get the tire changed. So I put my mind at rest with the assurance that this would take place. (oh did I happen to tell you that the guy did give us the key when we purchase the vehicle but Donnie "lost", or shall we say "misplaced" the key. So Sunday we enjoyed our off days with no worries because we would have the tire repaired probably that Monday. Monday came and we waited, patiently I may add, for the guy to come with the key to unlock the rims, we waited, and we waited and we WAITED!!! Until all hope was gone and I honestly started getting stressed yet again. My boys have not yet said anything negative about taking me to work. They both have been great, BUT!!! it still isn't fair to them (more Donnie then Jeff because he seems the only one with a working vehicle at this time). This also came on the heels of the fact that Jeff's Range Rover (rolls eyes) was repaired on Saturday. I picked it up, and to me the damn thing still seem like something was WRONG!! I called Jeff at 7:37 to see how he was because I hadn't heard from him earlier that day and he informs me that his "We told you not to buy the damn Range Rover in the first place Jay but you didn't listen did you" vehicle was doing the same thing that he has had it in the shop for TWICE!! and he was walking home.

So with all that being said, it's Tuesday morning, I am dressed and waiting to leave here at 7:30. Donnie has came by the house and dropped off his car and keys for me to go to work. I have called Jeff twice trying to see if he has a way to work. He has yet to call me back, so I am assuming his girlfriend is going to take him and leave it at that. This flat tire has become another stressful situation that I don't need. Something so damn simply has become a pain in my natural ass. So today's task ladies and gentlemen will be me calling around rim shops seeing if I can get someone to tell me what I need to do. Life is truly unpredictable but it is also these unpredictable situation that makes for never a dull moment.

oh by the way, I will let you on my thoughts of a few things on the Olympic and a documentary I saw about Jesus Camp.

YES I FOUND THE WORDS TO " WE ARE THE WORLD" YOU CAN THANK ME LATER!!

We Are The World", U.S.A. for Africa

There comes a time when we need a certain call
When the world must come together as one
There are people dying
Oh, and it's time to lend a hand to life
The greatest gift of all

We can't go on pretending day by day
That someone, somehow will soon make a change
We're all a part of God's great big family
And the truth - you know love is all we need

( CHORUS )
We are the world, we are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
so let's start giving
There's a choice we're making
We're saving our own lives
It's true we'll make a better day
Just you and me

Well, send'em you your heart
So they know that someone cares
And their lives will be stronger and free
As God has shown us
By turning stone to bread
And so we all must lend a helping hand

( REPEAT CHORUS )

When you're down and out
There seems no hope at all
But if you just believe
There's no way we can fall
Well, well, well, let's realize
That one change can only come
When we stand together as one

( REPEAT CHORUS AND FADE )


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Here's a list of the singers next to their lyric from the 1985 version. . .

There comes a time when we heed a certain call (Lionel Richie)
When the world must come together as one (Lionel Richie & Stevie Wonder)
There are people dying (Stevie Wonder)
Oh, and it's time to lend a hand to life (Paul Simon)
The greatest gift of all (Paul Simon/Kenny Rogers)

We can't go on pretending day by day (Kenny Rogers)
That someone, somehow will soon make a change (James Ingram)
We're all a part of God's great big family (Tina Turner)
And the truth (Billy Joel)
You know love is all we need (Tina Turner/Billy Joel)

( CHORUS )
We are the world, we are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day so let's start giving (Michael Jackson)
There's a choice we're making we're saving our own lives (Diana Ross)
It's true we'll make a better day just you and me (Michael Jackson/Diana Ross)

Well, send'em you your heart so they know that someone cares (Dionne Warwick)
And their lives will be stronger and free (Dionne Warwick/Willie Nelson)
As God has shown us by turning stone to bread (Willie Nelson)
And so we all must lend a helping hand (Al Jurreau)

( REPEAT CHORUS )
We are the world, we are the children (Bruce Springsteen)
We are the ones who make a brighter day so let's start giving (Kenny Logins)
There's a choice we're making we're saving our own lives (Steve Perry)
It's true we'll make a better day just you and me (Daryl Hall)

When you're down and out there seems no hope at all (Michael Jackson)
But if you just believe there's no way we can fall (Huey Lewis)
Well, well, well, let's realize that a change can only come (Cyndi Lauper)
When we (Kim Carnes)
stand together as one (Kim Carnes/Cyndi Lauper/Huey Lewis)

(REPEAT CHORUS AND FADE )

(additional ad-lib vox by Bob Dylan, Ray Charles, Stevie Wonder, Bruce Springsteen, James Ingram)

YES I FOUND THE SINGERS TO "WE ARE THE WORLD", YOU CAN THANK ME LATER!!

Dan Aykroyd
Harry Belafonte
Lindsey Buckingham
Kim Carnes
Ray Charles
Bob Dylan
Sheila E.
Bob Geldof
Hall and Oates
James Ingram
Jackie Jackson
LaToya Jackson
Marlon Jackson
Michael Jackson
Randy Jackson
Tito Jackson
Al Jarreau
Waylon Jennings
"Pop-Up Video" stated that he left the recording session due to a dispute over the lyrics.
Billy Joel
Cyndi Lauper
Huey Lewis and the News
Kenny Logins
Bette Midler
Willie Nelson
Jeffery Osborne
Steve Perry
The Pointer Sisters
Lionel Richie
Smokey Robinson
Kenny Rogers
Diana Ross
Paul Simon
Bruce Springsteen
Tina Turner
Dionne Warwick
Stevie Wonder
Michael Boddicker - Synthesizers, Programming
Paulinho da Costa - Percussion
Louis Johnson - Bass
Quincy Jones - Producer
Michael Omartian - Keyboards, Producer
Greg Phillinganes - Keyboards
John Robinson - Drums

We are the WORLD

Today, Vic and I were in rare form, we were singing the "We are the World" song. Come on you all remember We are the World, don't you? Sure you do damn it!! Anyway, we were making fun of how some of the singer were singing and before we knew it we were doing the usual out of control thing. Denise then joined in and it was on. lol. Vic had mention "Tina Turner" was singing as well and I told him I didn't think so, but Vic I was wrong she was there with the rest of the crew. Not sure how much money the song made but I remember singing along with them and knowing the main damn chorus. Yes I got on you tube and and search for it. LOL. Anyway, for your viewing enjoyment. WE ARE THE WORLD Ladies and Gentlemen.

I want to SCREAM!!

I seriously want to SCREAM from the top of my lungs. I know life is not perfect and I never wanted to be rich, or famous, or have anyone KNOW ME for anything but for just being me. But hell, when does the bullshit stop and the real shit begin. I look around me daily and try to brace myself for whats going to happen next, However, each day I do that it seems to be a waste of time. What ever I have braced myself for, it ain't never what I expect and I am always left scratching my head and thinking "I didn't see THAT COMING". Each day brings about a new challenge and change, I am trying to get a grip on everything but it's hard to just do what you need to do. I am sick of changes that make you feel like your doing EVERYTHING wrong and nothing RIGHT. I know I need to let go and let God, and that is just saying things I can not change I need to accept and move the fuck on. I vent daily, and I vent so much that I don't even think anyone notice or hears anymore, or for that matter gives a rats ass. Everyone around me is so programed that they vent and 30 Min's later they forgot what they vented about and do it all over again. Life is something I never expected to be so confusing as a child, I couldn't wait to grow up and be an adult and do my own shit. NOW!! I wish there are things I could go back and change starting from childhood. It' easy to think you know it all as a child, teen or young adult. But once you REALLY know shit you wish you didn't know and you are left saying "If I knew then, what I know Now". The facts are you couldn't have gotten to NOW, without going through whatever you go through. If you knew what you know now then, you would be probably saying that same thing then as your saying now. I wish I could turn back time and do so many things differently, I wish I wish I WISH!!! But you can't so since you can't you just move on with the knowledge that, as Jerrie would say "It is what it is" which is now my motto. Let's all smile and say it together "It is what it is" thank you for listening to me and allowing me to vent, I welcome any comments you may have and if you leave a comment that pisses me off KNOW you will get cussed the hell out. *BIG SMILE*

Alter Ego Anyone...

Bruce Wayne has Batman, Clark Kent has Superman, Barbara Gordon or Barbara Wilson has Batgirl (depending on what Batman you watched) and Dr. Jekyll has Mr. Hyde, I have an alter ego and I am going to play her little virtual ass as much as possible. Now she isn't a super hero with extra ordinary powers. But she posses the desires, the wants, the needs and the means to get what I don't have. I know a lot of people think that playing an online virtual game is a waste of time. A lot of ppl make fun of me, and that's ok too. I often laugh at times I don't understand. Lack of knowledge will do that to you every time. Truth be told there are a lot of things ppl do that escape my reason of what mmakes sense. But each of us has a hobby, mine happens to be online virtual games. Some people don't have hobbies, instead they do nothing with time but, hmm, nothing. Some people don't have a boring life like I do, lol, so they can enjoy vacations, going out, and enjoying lots of family and friends around them. I hate to admit it but I am not a friendly person (HAHAHA on the floor laughing my ass off). I am not going to pretend to like you if I don't unless of course I am FORCED!! (looks at Jerrie) lol. My mother use to force me, or try to I should say to like people. My grandmother accepted that little part of me and never tried to make me like anyone I didn't. Anyway, the facts of me playing an online game is because money is these days and gas prices being out of this world. Playing a virtual online game, and watching netflix is a good way of me to keep busy and have some fun. So yeah, I play.

What most of you already know, or maybe don't know is that I have not been in SL as much as before. I usually log in to hear the rain and fall asleep at my computer. I have been playing world of war craft with Dee more and more and leveling with him. I haven't had time for Second Life between my blood pressure, trying to make Dee by playing WOW and watching my instance quene movies on Netflix it's been a slow breeze.

I also have been watching some old movies and sitcoms on Netflix, one of my favorites have been "The Night Stalker", some British comedy from the 70's called "Good Neighbors" and a movie called "Die Die My Darling", very cheesy I remember seeing it as a kid and only knowing that this dead guys mother was trying to kill the very young and not really famous yet Stephanie Powers character. When I watched it the other night I understood the whole story, Stephanie Powers plays a young woman who was engaged to this guy who died, and the mother of the guy wants to meet Stephanie. You then find out the mother is a crazy ass religious nut and wants "save Stephanie" so she can be pure for her son when she dies and he comes back. *raises eye brows*. Good plot, suspense, they should do a damn remake of it. I even got a chance to see Harold & Kumar, which was a little on the funny side. I think Neal Patrick Harris playing a sex crazed womanize was funny as hell, considering the fact we all know he is an open homosexual. I like Neal Patrick Harris, I think he is some what of a good actor.

Anyway back to the "ALTER EGO" ECHOS, I have an online persona that mimics my real life one. However, I would like to keep my real life away from my virtual one now. The reason for this is because of stress on every major front job, kids, money, health, the only stable thing in my life right now is my marriage and that is because we worked hard on it to built it up. So I would like to come on game as my alter ego and just be someone... ELSE! I want to work on my designing again, as well as other fun things. Now Second Life will be my main game, but I have looked at other forms of online fun and I am going to just do a Nike and "JUST DO IT". I am going to keep my regular Avie but I will play my ALTER EGO more now since I have decided that this may be a fun thing to try. Hell why not, nothing wrong with having an alt as long as your not hurting anyone.

Speaking of WOW, I got my Azure Whelping today, I know I haven't talked about the damn whelping to any of you. But I have been wanting one now for over 5 months, they cost almost 900 gold at the auction house. Today we went to the place where they dropped and ended up with, are you ready for this? TWO!! Now mind you per other ppl who play wow it takes anywhere from 2 to 3 hours for the Dragon to drop one. It took us 30 Min's to get the first one then another 30 for the second one to drop. YAY!! I may put one out for sell for 900 gold, why the hell not.

Tomorow

Shake Rattle and Roll

Ok if you have read Dena's and Victors Blogs you already know about the earthquake and how it make them feel and what happen at our place of employment. I am just thankful that my family, and the few friends I have were not hurt. I remember the Northridge quake as if it just happen because it was a strong quake that had me losing sleep for many nights. I remember people sleeping outside in tents too scared to go inside because of fear they would be awaken at night underneath the ceiling of their homes. I remember a street light shaking from side to side until it fell on a car outside of our home. It was something I think everyone who was a part of it will always remember. Dee has never been in an earth quake before so it truly got to him, I understand why it would. He is from NY and not sure to the ground shaking beneath his feet. Hell, those of us who live here and been in one before are not use to the ground shaking beneath our feet. I admit it didn't really get to me until I walked outside and had thoughts of the last one and how it scared my cousins so badly. I was staying with my cousin at the time who had a stroke a few years earlier. She wasn't bad off she had a mild stroke but a stroke is a stroke. I remember hearing her scream while I was in the other bedroom and my deep fear she would have another stroke. Thankfully we all got out of the house without injury but those like that came to mind and I broke down. Lately I break down for things I really don't understand, I miss my grandmother and mother a lot and I know a lot of my tears are from missing them and wishing they were here. When I play second life I think of my mother, she had her own public access TV show in which she had guest to speak about how god had changed their lives. She even had Fred "Rerun" Berry on her show once speaking about how his life had changed. He even sung on the show, at the time I thought it was funny and cheesy. Now I realize what a difference she made in her community and how so many people life's she touched with that show and how greatly she was missed.. I think about how she may have liked my game second life and how she may have enjoyed being with me in game so we could shop and spend money. So many things you think about when you don't want to think at all.

Enough of that, things have been fun for me. I been playing wow with the hubby making him a happy man. I actually have been leveling up to a cool 46 and had got some nice loots. Wow can be fun at times, some quest I hate others I have fun with and want to do more and more. This is making the man happy that I am giving him some time and playing with him. I am having fun!!!

I have been watching "Project Runway" again, I use to talk about it in my fashion blog with my clothing line for SL but I stopped after a while. I use to love to have my favorite designer and root from them each week to win the challenge. i may start doing this again if I start my blog for my clothing line in sl again. We shall see...

It is now going on the 2;30 hour, I need to get some rest there is always tomorrow.

The sun will come out tomorrow, bet your bottom dollar they'll be sun! The hell with it let me find it on youtube.

Early to Bed, you know the rest

I woke up at 7:00am this morning, and have not been able to go back to sleep yet. I can not stand the fact that I just can't seem to stay up late at night. I want to badly, I would love to sleep in until 10am or later but my body just won't allow me too. My eyes usually get heavy and my body gets tired around 9:00pm, then around 9:30 you see my head bouncing and me trying to stay away. At around 10 I am telling Dee to just let me sleep 30 mins to an hour and I assure him I will get up and play "Wow" with him. He as always, wakes me up the hour later and I beg for another 30 mins. After 3 or 4 times of this he finally gives up and I sleep blissfully until the next morning accusing him of not waking me up in which his eyes rolls and I then shut up because I know he has. I just want to be able to enjoy being up all night because I don't have to work the next morning. I am going to try again tonight, there is a lot I want to do in game today I want to start on my new clothing pieces. Remember I want to try to make some extra cash.

PANDA BABY

Several Little Things

1) To Sleep or not to Sleep
Ok.... WTF is wrong with me first of all. Why am I falling asleep at t he drop of a damn hat. In my late 20's I would fall asleep while driving, at work on the computer, while talking to family and friends (while on the phone or oh yeah even in damn person but was still holding a full convo with them but SLEEP!!). I lived my life like this for almost 2 years and then it suddenly stopped. Now it isn't that bad, but at around 9:30 or 10pm I usually get so tired I can not stay awake and I am done... DONE!!! Last night Scarlett and I were out looking for baby things and we came across a "Panda Set" I thought about Vic and was going to buy him something. Scarlett was talking then next thing i know I woke up with my screen saying you have been idle for more then 30 minutes the only thing you can see is your chat log however you will not be able to interact and this is what I saw.

[21:55] ScarlettAngel Silverstar: oh..there's a park here...baby's life park...[21:57] ScarlettAngel Silverstar: can you see me outside? i can see you![21:58] ScarlettAngel Silverstar: wow! i can do a handstand out here![22:00] ScarlettAngel Silverstar: a big giant bouncyhouse![22:01] ScarlettAngel Silverstar: hello? you still awake?[22:04] ScarlettAngel Silverstar: okay, well, guess I'll see you tomorrow....night night.

and even worse.. I SAW THIS *mouth trimbling and tears* my Vic was on line
[22:07] Italo Dawid: knock knock[22:07] Italo Dawid: it's me

I think it is because I need to get more rest for one, and take my vitamins as my doctor has suggested countless times for me to do. I get worn out so quickly plus I did wake up this morning around 5am and went back to sleep at 6:30am only to wake back up at 8am. Ok so maybe tonight was inevitable for me to fall damn asleep. But I missed my Vic Vic *mouth trembling again and tears*

2) TSO STILL CLOSING
As you read about my TSO post, Scarlett pointed out some really good points how TSO actually made us friends in a round about sort of way. I think I may make a "Sim" to go over there (Scarlettt they are called "Sims" in TSO, "Avies" in there.com, "Toons" in WOW, "Characters" in COH, "Characters" in SWG, and "Avies" in Second Life). I may go and play for a bit just to say good bye to the game. Why the hell not! Or throw a party in SL for the game closing down maybe go to TSO and invite ppl from there to play and maybe let my radio station (if I bring it back) give a free makeover to a lucky new player in SL from TSO. ** THE MIND IS A TERRIBLE TO WASTE**


3) A virtual "Drag Queen Show"
Vic made a good idea if you read his comment on my previous blog. What about putting on a "Virtual Drag Queen Show". That idea really is not bad at all, also you can have a "Virtual Ms. Drag Queen of SL". Have a contest on who the "prettiest DQ is in sl" crown Ms thing "Ms. DQD" aka Drag Queen Diva and let her win some prices along with holding the title for a year. A weekend Drag Queen show would be fun. I have also thought about bringing back my radio station as I have mention and wanted Vic to do a 70 and 80's music theme each weekend along with him doing a "critic" space on the website of the station. Hmmmm so, Vic what you think.


4) WELCOME BACK JERRIE
Jerrie, my boss/ mom/ mentor is back for her vacation and I get to see her later today and she can tell me how bad I was.

5) Invent aka Jeff Virtual Video
OK , I have been talking about it on and off for months now and it seem it may really be happening now. Invent and I have sat along with his virtual manager, virtual DJ and others to talk about his up coming virtual video shoot. I even have been working on his website and starting his blog. I am really excited about it because I think it is going to be a lot of fun as well as something different to do. YAY!!! Stay tooned, you get it, I say tooned like a cartoon because of the avies lol, you get it ... oh whatever!!!

Ok I am taking my ass to bed now, I did take a photo of the baby asleep at the place in the panda outfit

The closing of TSO also known as EA Land

Ok, those who KNOW me, or even those who think they do. Know that I started my online virtual life playing http://thesimsonline.com/ aka TSO or now EALand. I first started in 2002 and played until a new game called http://there.com/ took me away and then http://seondlife.com/. TSO at that time was one of the biggest online multi player call (of it's kind that is) ever. It started with a game called http://thesims.com/ and has now expanded to several expansion packs to a more fun to play with sequel called http://thesims2.com/ and in 2009 http://thesims3.com/ will be coming to a game store near you. I use to love playing the sims when I first discovered them. I was working but had thrown my back out and was home, my then husband was working and both sons were in school. I became bored of talk shows and I have not watched day time soap operas since I was in High School. I received the sims as a birthday gift (one I didn't want may I add). The game stayed in the box for a month until my then husband opened it and played it, he tried to tell me I may enjoy it but of course like everything else he suggested I ignored his ass. It was because of my son Jeff I begin playing it. Jeff made a character and started talking to me about it and that is what caught my interest. I played it and started becoming addicted, playing for hours on end only to stop to eat, sleep, shower or go to use the little pink girls room. I remember once I was on until my ex when to sleep until he awaken that morning. He got up and asked was I on it all night, after I told him yes I was, his comment or suggested was I should "Marry the game" it was then when I made him in the game and begin to torture him by drowning him, burning him, starving him and beating him up *WICKED SMILE*.

Once, my soon to be ex split up and the new man in my life (married 7 years and counting love you baby). I started buying expansion packs and starting going online to the site to get more information. I found on the site that http://eagames.com/ and my son to play with me. I left tso after almost 2 years because it became boring and nothing was really refreshing. While playing however I had several successful businesses, a club, a garden, a store, a restaurant and a skill land. No, I don't miss tso but hearing it is closing is sad and it has made me think alot about how this game was the stepping stone to my now addiction. hmmm maybe I should be throwing a damn party for the culprit of my demise.

WTH is wrong with me

Ok, this is day two of me falling into a deep sleep before I want too. Dee and I got off at 5pm, but came back to pick up my son from work who leaves at 7pm. We get home around 7:30.pm . The three of us talk for a few and then Dee and I got something to eat while Jeff complain he couldn't move in sl and that he wanted a house and land. HA!! Jeff soon left our apartment to go to his. I jumped in the shower and Dee, well Dee got on WOW. When I got out the shower I felt a little relaxed, so I thought I could take a quick 30 min nap. I thought afterwards I would be refreshed and could log into second life. I was actually going to look for Jeff a piece of land so he could stop being a big cry baby. (who said that, who, who said it). I laid down and I fell asleep, only to wake up 30 mins ago (it's now 3:37AM) and finding Dee, you guessed it.. playing wow. Yes again past 3am my husband is playing WOW.

Can we say addicted??!!

What??? Oh hell no don't look at me like that, I have no addiction to any damn online games. I can quick whenever I want too. *enters password for second life* Anytime I damn well please, I can STOP!! Logging in. What? I am logging in to see if I can find Jeff a piece of land, I told you all he was a big cry baby. Ok, I may be a little addicted.. But at least it's not Ping Pong. So There!

I really should go to bed tho, I have to go to work tomorrow for goodness sakes and I want to be able to give my 110% *SMILES* Ok I am logging out and going to try to lay back down and get some more sleep. Of course Dee is still playing wow, in the rain no less. lol.

I'm going to blog.. honest

I got up this morning and my computer was still on. I fell sleep right after I ate dinner and had to get up early enough to take a longer shower then usual. It's already HOT!!! and I already got this feeling the day is going to be long, and that along with the fact my neck is stiff and I am in a good deal of pain (my neck was so stiff yesterday I could not move) gets me in a bad mood already. But I am glad, at least I have a job to have a long day at and to have a stiff neck at. (wow did I actually sound joyous). I am making this quick, but I am going to blog tonight. I know what your all thinking and saying under your breath. She says that all the time, yeah an I do and what is anyone going to do about it. NOT a damn thing!! No seriously, I am going to blog. I mean I haven't really had any interesting things to talk about. If you read Dena or Victors blog you know the only movie I went to see lately was the Happening, and it wasn't. I will say this much, this movie should be filed under when bad movies happen to good actors. Ohhhh the humanity.

BREAKING THE SILENCE!

I have not been bloggin in a while and for many reasons. One I guess is because when I get home I am just too damn tired to vent about the days happenings. Another could be because the damn Internet was acting super stupid for the past few weeks. So let me try and catch up yet again. I have forgotten a lot of what happen to me this past damn near month but I will attempt.

1) MUSICAL CHAIRS
OK. Yesterday My boss/mom told us she was moving our chairs around. Now mind you at first we ALL of us thought she was playing until she really starting telling us to pack up our shit. So we all packed up our shit (well some of us did I am packing up my shit today) and we started to move. Now this is to, per boss/mom, and I am sure this is coming from the powers that be meant to shake us up and make us perform better as a team. IF that is what it does, then I am ALL for it. I know I can do better but seriously I am just not focusing enough and I do hope that moving me (which I don't see how it would help and another supervisor voiced that she doesn't either. BUT!!! If it will help us get to the next level of doing better then I am ALL FOR IT!! Some of us aren't happen with our sitting arrangements see Scarlet's Blog. But it is what it is.

2)VAMPIRES?
Almost a month ago I almost beat the living SHIT outta a hmm how do you spell it phlebotomy's who was taking my blood. I have very small veins, and the fact that I am a BIG girl makes the effort of taking my blood a bad experience. However, usually when I tell someone its my right arm, and show them around the spot in which to take it they get it the first try. OOOOHHH NO but not this bitch, she does it not once, but twice, then she goes to the other arm and sticks me three times with each time she moves the needle in my arm searching for a vein. No blood coming out, NONE! Zip. My leg started to shake and I started to tense up and she is still trying to get blood out of a vein that is not there!!! Meanwhile, she is speaking to her fellow vampires and asking them what she should do. One walks over to me and begins look at the back of my hand for a vein. THAT is when my patience ran out and fear kicked in. I am scared to death of needles, I have been like that since I was a little girl and I am still the same way. So as she searched for the butterfly needle, got the cotton and begin wiping my hand. I looked her dead in the eye and told her "You wont be sticking my fucking hand with a needle. if you three cant figure this shit out then get someone who the fuck can". Her eyes got big and frankly I didn't give a shit because I was two minutes from beating her ass senseless. So, they got in a corner begin talking (in Spanish of course) and kept glancing over at me. One walked out and moments later another Vampire came in and begin looking at my arms. I already knew by now my arms would be black and damn blue the next day and I also know they are not suppose to stick you more then once, twice only if they had too so this meant it would be three times. I didn't give a damn they were not taking it from my hand. The back of your hands are the most painful when taking blood and I wasn't having it. She looked at my arms and asked me which one was the one most likely to give blood. I said, "THE RIGHT LIKE I SAIDDDDDDDDDD BEFORE". I didn't realize this bitch had a needle and was getting ready to stick me and I was being EVIL!! EVIL!! So she got the butterfly needle, put it aside, got the cotton ball, pumped the alcohol, I took a deep breath and turned my head as she wiped and then *pinch* I looked down and the blood rushed freely in the small hose into the blood vial. I smiled a little because it wasn't hurting and it was going fast. She smiled in relief and once it was all done we both looked at each other and laughed.

3) T

Never gonna Give You Up

Ok a few days ago we were at the job singing a song that "Rick Astley" (who knows where he is now ) made famous in the 80's. I ran across it and it has some interesting info along with it. So without future ado, the SONG that made and broke Rick's very short career "Never gonna give you up"

Match Maker Match Maker

Return to Childhood

OK Victor said he was "disappointed" in my childhood story. So I thought I would sit down and really think of more and share it. Truth be known to me my childhood was boring. But I guess there were a few things that were different. The fact is I was a shy kid and had a bit of an identify issue. Being half black and half native American I felt like I stood out (even tho I didn't). I remember once my fatter showed up at my school damn near in full native attire and I just remember kids looking at me like WTF is he. I didn't want to admit this big tall giant of a man was my daddy. Even tho all the female teachers were losing there natural damn minds over him. (hehehe I just remembered that) Well, Because of that and the BIGGEST fact of my grandmother keeping me sheltered I did some things to try to back out of my shyness, or so to speak. Once I did a "Barbie" puppet show, yeah you heard me. Once I gathered my Barbie collection and the one Ken doll and took them to school along with my self made puppet stage and have a puppet show at school in front of my whole class. It was funny, and I think everyone thought I was the biggest damn Geek at my school because of it. I also remember role playing, or should I say role acting. I use to have Disney Soundtrack Records. Seriously, there was Cinderella, Snow White, The Jungle Book, Peter Pan, etc. I would "act out" what the characters on the soundtrack were saying and doing. I would mimic the words and gestures and dance along with the music. (YESSSSS I KNOWWWWWWW). I remember when my grandmother's boss insisted she see "Fiddler on he roof" and take me with her. She gave my grandmother two tickets to this beautiful theatre in Santa Monica. I remember being dressed up and sitting down in this amazing place with all these nice well to do Jewish people, but I didn't feel out of place. They were all very nice and spoke and asked me if I were enjoying the movie during the intermission. YES, it really had an intermission, this allowed my grandmother to go get me a small bag of pop corn and a small coke for me. I really liked the film, it is to this day one of my favorites. I asked my grandmother to buy the sound track to it. And yes soon I was singing "match maker match maker find me a match" right along with those little Jewish hopefuls. Now another funny is me getting my hair combed. That was an adventure in our house. My cousins Gerrie (yes there was a Gerry, Gloria, Dolores, Bobby and my mother (my grandmother raised me my mother lives with us briefly when I grew up). All have to bribe me to let them comb my hair. I would hide the comb in varies places around the house and after 45 Min's to an hour of them looking for it they would give up and bribe me to give it to them. I was very "tender headed" at that time so they had to make promises of sweets (and make good on it) to make me show them where the comb was for them to do my hair. LOL unlike now with me being damn near bald. When I was a kid my hair was very very long, it hurt so badly for them to comb it I made them work for the privilege of doing so. I remember once my cousin Gloria promised me Ice Cream to get the comb. I got the comb she combed it and the that BITCH didn't get my Ice Cream when the Ice Cream man came by ringing his bell on the street. Once my grandmother got home I told on Gloria's ass and my grandmother went OFF on her. She told her NO ONE and I do mean NO ONE!! lies to me for any reason. Needless to say Gloria's ass had to go get me a pint of chocolate ice cream before she went to bed and I ate my ice cream smackingly in front of her ass. rofl she was always a dumb bitch!!

This commercial is Funny as hell

Where are you Josie?

Today at work Vic, Carlos and I were just talking about how we were as kids. I found out some INTERESTING things about Vic and Carlos both were pyromaniacs in the making, yeah BOTH!!! I think tried to remember things that made me possibly stand out from other kids. I remember how spoiled I was and how much I was into television. So much so that when I was a kid and it was time for my bath (which as I do now I would stay in it for hours on end). My grandmother would unplug our old black and white TV and roll the stand in which it was placed on to the door of the bathroom and allowed me to watch TV while I bathe. I wanted to watch, My three sons, Petticoat Junction and Family Affairs. WOW!!! Did I just AGE myself in a matter of 3 seconds. I remember having Barbie Dolls Puppet shows at school, lol. Damn I think I was a geek everyone. I remember that I was the one who would put the bulbs and lights on almost everyone tree in our complex. I earned a little extra money doing that each year. I remember believer in Santa until I was 13 I think. I remember I use to draw, color and write short stories all while I sat on the floor of our apartment all day long. I think I still have that in me but now my pencils and paper are replaced with a keyboard and a monitor. I was raised by my grandmother until I was 15 and moved in with my mother. A lot of things come to mind. However, the most strangest thing I guess lasted a little over a year. I was a lonely kidd, shy, quiet and not sure of much. (I know sooo much not like how I am now). But because of this I befriended an imaginary friend name "Josie". Josie blue eyed, dressed in a flowered dress and had Blondie pigtails. Now you wonder why I remembered hos she looked? because my past tells me I could see her. Why you ask was she blonde and blue eyed when I was black and native american. THe fact that growing up in those days at age 7 the only people who were on tv were white. You didnt really relate to anyone on the TV because you (me for example) was black and native American (denying that heritage until I was in Junior high). I remember my grandmother being so patience with me and Josie. She sat a plate for her each night I would ask her too, she would pretend to speak to Josie when I would say she told her HI and she would allow Josie to be in the tub as long as we two didn't get the floor too wet. Now I do remember even tho its been over 40 years that I "seen Josie" but my grandmother never did (or did she). My most funniest memory of Josie was when we went to a Caterina called "Clifton's where I was picking up doubles of everything lol. Double meatloaf, double corn, double greens, double chocolate cake. lol Grandma asked me what was I doing with all that food "Sam, baby are you that hungry?", " NOOO", I replied "It's for Josie, she has to eat too" rofl. Grandma looked at me as if to say "ok something is wrong with my baby and I need to get her HELP!!! but before that I am not paying the Josie game with this food". My gram took the food off my tray and begin to put them back. "You can share with her" she said lol. "no gram-mama I can't she eats too much" WOW the things you remember I wonder where Josie is. In my heart somewhere, in my mind way back. one thing is for sure she is not forgotten. MANGO!!!

B4 I go to bed my New Hair Do *~*SMILE*~*

Wait your fucking TURN!!!

Ok, I am a bit pissed for several reasons. One I couldn't log into game until 5 Min's ago. ACTUALLY I couldn't even get on the Internet at all, OMG!!!!!! Anyway, I missed out on a photo shoot as well as a modeling event. This pissed me off because I am trying to get my new designs out there in the world of SL. Ok enough of that,. let's talk about the REASON for my post. People at work who can't wait their damn turn while waiting on assistance. We have a system where if you need assistance front a supervisor, and or "mentor" (half of the mentors walking the floor we reps know more then they do but that is another damn blog post don't ya know). I had raised my flag and was getting help from one of the mentors. While doing so I known one of the reps was calling out for help from every one passing as if SHE had to have help before anyone else did. The person helping me stood up but we were still talking about the account which was a MAJOR issue. She started calling out the mentors name who was assisting me, IGNORING the fact others had their flag up before she did. WEll, I go a little upset and snapped at her with a "He is helping me, Can't you wait?????!!" She gave me a look and I gave her ASS one right back. 20 Min's later the mentor who was helping me finish what we were doing and walked away. We all KNOW this person is one who RUNS to HR or to a SUPERVISOR when some one hurts her feelings. MIND YOU, when you mention her name to over half the call center they roll their eyes in disapproval and then begin to speak on how they can't STAND HER ASS!! Well I went to her supervisor and my own to inform them what I said and to forewarn them that I was sure they would hear about it from her. TOO LATE!!! she had already told her sup. She did this even before she got help so she must of been REAL pissed off. Here's the thing, NO ONE (not even lovable me) is above WAITING our fucking turn to get assistance from someone. And to runnnnnnn to a supervisor to "tell on me" grow some balls and come to me yourself. EVEN if you know I am going to snap or say something have a bit of a back bone and come to me and adderss your issues. But what can you do when some people are too impatience to wait their fucking turn. Ok feel better now I have VENTED!! Scarlett this is for you hehehe. MANGO!!!!!

This is one crazy ass CHICA!!! ROFLMFAO

Ok I will talk more about his nutcase later but until then ENJOY her painful video

Crazy?!

Yesterday was interesting, WE, Team Coyotes were in rare form. I think we were a bit out of control. NOT bad out of control but fun out of control. We laughed, got loud, stood up, gossip, and just had over all fun. We are all well balanced and in control employees. WELL!!! some of us are *wicked smile*. Today as we sat posted one of our fellow employees had something interesting on his desk. Numbers? now mind you when he was asked this by the Italian EX Princess he informed her it were "decorations". Now let me say this, I for one and trying my best to keep my head above water and have our team shine. I think 99% of us are, but as you all know it takes only ONE to fuck up the rotation. This person seems to always find NEW WAYS to be above us all and just stay sane enough to come to work. Sane enough, now that in itself is in question. Now mind you when we first saw this image we were trying to figure out if it was him trying to count, or trying to figure out a new math system. The Italian EX Princess actual compared him to Russell Crowes Character from "A Beautiful Mind". Beginning to wonder about her now. Hey, could it be he was LEARNING his numbers? If he is trying he is way off damn base putting them in that order. Hold up your fingers, one, two, three, four, five it's THESE MANY!! rofl

MANGO!!!

I know its been over a week since I have wrote anything in the blog, for that I apologize. I do promise tomorrow I will get you up to speed with Scarlett's Dragon, Lilo's first day in sl, my new clothing store in sl, my new blog (yes another one damn it to hell), the reason why nurses don't know how to draw blood, and many many more. But, first, let's talk about the new taste sensation, MANGOS!! Yes can you believe I had my first Mango this past Friday. Dena had been a true friend and taking me home from work these past few days (TY DENA). Well Friday as we drove up my son, Jeff was out getting corn on the cob from this Mexican guy with a cart. Dee ran quickly towards the guy and got a corn on the cob along with a fruit drink with ice. Donnie, my younger son decided he was going to get a mango, with lime juice and chilli. I looked at it after he got it and thought, ok why the hell not try one out. OMG!!! I love Mangossssssssssss! I was so dissapointed when Saturday the Mango man wasn't out with his cart as he soooo promised the day before. BASTARD!! But Sunday and earlier today my son Donnie came to the house with a MANGOS!! I know your thinking you waiting for WEEKS and all I can come up with is MANGOS!! YOU DAMN RIGHT!!

U2 in Second Life / Dedicated in to Victor MUAH

Poster Child for Abortions

Behold I bring you Gifts

Now my sister who is now back playing sl with me under my other avatar is driving me crazy. She actually had the NERVE to ask me about the Christmas gifts I never wrapped therefore I never gave out for Christmas of last year. Hell, I honestly forgot, I thought maybe this year (2008) I would be searching in my closet around November and come across the gifts and wrap them up for Christmas of this year *SMILES*. But NOOOOO, my sister isn't having that she wants her damn gift NOW and wants it before Christmas of this year. WTF does she think? She thinks I am made of money and can buy gifts every Christmas. It was December 2007, ok I forgot to give them out. Why, now around Easter time this year she wants these Christmas gifts, Get over it woman. Anyway, she isn't the only one I got gifts for and didn't wrap them up or give them out. In fact, there are 5 no make that 6 people who I didn't wrap gifts for and give. I know I am a bad friend, I know cheap huh wanting to give them out THIS YEAR. Facts are December 2007 I was not feeling my best, and as much as I wanted to be fully in the spirit of Christmas, a lot of my Christmas joy was missing from my life. So I forgot to wrap gifts, I didn't forget to buy them, just wrap them up and give them out. I said in January I would give them out, I said this again in February now here in March I am making that promise yet again. Believe it or not I still have Christmas paper, bows, ribbons that I could sit and wrap them up all neatly as if it's Christmas. Either way, even if it's a brown paper bag I will give them out. Note some ppl may not get them. **EVIL SMILE**

MY SECOND LIFE?
On another note, I haven't been in second life that much, last night I went in to check on my shop. I lost one of my stores which frankly I probably wasn't getting any real sales there and damn well so who gives a damn. I had an idea last night when a friend asked me to make her an outfit she could call her own. She offered to pay me for the project, but I told her if she allowed me to sell it she would not have to worry about paying me for it. I then thought what about making an outfit that Dena and Denise designed and name the outfit after them, better yet maybe I could even design the outfit myself and name it after them. I had thought of a cute outfit that I will make for Jerrie (already have the idea in mind what she would probably like). I am not as excited about the clothing line as I use to be, I want to really start doing clothes again but I want to be in the mood to do them. I am debating on doing a Magazine in game again as well. I know Dena aka Scarlett loves to write and maybe that would be a good idea to have her become a writer for the magazine. I also want Denise aka Angella as well to do something but she has just moved and is a bit busy with that so she may not be able to get started soon. I am excited about some of the things I am going to get started on. I do want to get some new outfits out within a months time to try and start getting some sales. Sandra Ida has already made six outfits for her clothing line so I need to get on track and keep the hell up.

WORK WORK HUH OH YEAH WORK
I started back to work on the 19th, right now I am just listening to phone calls and talking to Victor, Carlos, Denise, Dena, Jerrie and the love of my life. Jeanette has not been here so I can't gossip with her. Tomorrow the 22nd I am suppose to be on the phones and taking calls. NO!!!! I don't wanna sit alone so me and Dee may just sit together and take calls until Tuesday. I have been listening to how many ppl are actually saying the full "closing" lol, no one really is doing it to be honest. I agree it seems like a waste of the customers time as well as our own but the hell with it if Jerrie says do it and it makes it better on her that we are doing it. It's a done deal. She has done a lot for this team as a whole and if I have to say one line to make her happy then snap crackle pop I am doing it. I do understand my friends reasons for not saying it. I agree we are not "sheep", and you should be allow to have some kind of separate thoughts when it comes to your job and what you would like to do. Of course it's only one thing, but I do want to make myself, my team and Jerrie shine. So I will say it, cough, if I remember to COUGH!! *BIG SMILE*